Have you ever wonder?
Wonder about life in general, why things happen the way they do?
Lately, I find myself wondering why I made the decision of moving away from Puerto Rico. Puerto Rico, such a beautiful place, plenty to do, family all over the place…I mean pretty much heaven on Earth. I know why I left, and looking back it was probable the best thing to do at the time. I’ve questioned my decision plenty of times and I always come back to the same conclusion…it was just the right thing to do.
I also find myself wondering why I did no stay in the ARMY like I had plan. Another easy answer to that…is 9/11. 9/11 happened and that was my 1st day back at work, I left my precious two-month old angel, with my mother, at our apartment in Arlington, VA. It was early in the morning, of course I was emotional, and it was my 1st time away from my daughter! When I heard about the planes hitting the twin towers, I knew something major was going to happen with me and my husband. We were both, active duty soldiers…we knew that 9/11 was going to involve a long haul to catch the persons responsible for the attacks. Then the plane crashed into the Pentagon, and that was a close call. We were stationed at Ft. Myers, VA…literally within walking distance from the Pentagon. That was a good enough reason to complete my tour and get out of the service, to devote the rest of my life to my daughter.
Why did I get married? I never wanted such a commitment. I was a free-spirited woman, who loved being independent and loved my freedom. My, now, husband insisted enough…and 13 years later…we are still going strong. For me marriage was like a contract, like you own somebody…and I am totally against that. We struggled, and plenty of times I wanted out of the marriage, just because I did not like that feeling of being owned. Now, is a different story, we passed the years of struggled…my husband’s jealousy is controllable…and I still get to be me. I do not feel like he is my owner, I feel like I just share my space with him…and we live happy like that. He is a keeper!
Why did I lose my dream job? Oh, well this one hunted me for years….now not so much, but every now and then it sneaks on me. I guess it is safe to say that I lost my dream job because God has something better plan for me, and I will leave it at that.
Why do we have to move? Well, this one comes with lots of drama. After moving to SC from NC I made a personal decision to follow and support my husband and his professional career. His company has been good to us, and we have been good to the company. I prayed hard and long, God knows my struggles and God knows my heart. I asked God to make the decision for us, based on what was convenient for the family. The job offer was too hard to resist…we accepted the job offer, and now we are set to start a new chapter. At the end of the day, I will sacrifice anything and everything for the sake of my family. My two children are my world, and they need mom and dad all the way. Our commitment to our children is unbreakable, unquestionable….We belong to our children!by